“I want to have a lasting experience of God,” I told him. “Sometimes I feel like I understand the divinity of this world, but then I lose it because I get distracted by my petty desires and fears. I want to be with God all the time. But I dont want to be a monk, or totally give up worldly pleasures. I guess what I want to learn is how to live in this world and enjoy its delights, but also devote myself to God.”
It's like she was speaking for me, I've always wanted to be closer to God but I didn't want to be a nun and I never wanted to be a pagan, I just want to love God without having a heavy label, or to seem like I'm in a competition because I love God more or less. How can I be in both worlds, is it possible? I would like to think so because that is where I stand and that's where I feel comfortable. I think sometimes whatever perception we have of God, our limitations, flaws, etc we put that in God, but he's more than just labels, if he can love us unconditionally, why can't we love him and each the same way.
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